About Me

Hello, my name is Shanice and this is my blog. This blog is for girls, young women, older women, and for everyone in between, to talk about one issue the plagues us all, body image. First, I would like to share a little bit about myself to show everyone why this blog is important to me. My body issues started around the age of eight, at that time, I was being sexually abused by a family member. Physiological studies have been done linking sexual abused, low self esteem, eating disorders, and depression, and I completely agree with these studies. After being taken out of the situation, I started to become very uncomfortable in my own skin. I would watch t.v and see beautiful skinny women. I would listen to everyone tell my older sister how pretty she was, and I was always the “tomboy” or going through an awkward stage that would end soon. No one every made me feel like I was worth something and because of that, I felt worthless. Unfortunately, when I was 13, I was in a horrible four-wheeling accident that left large lacerations going across my neck. To feel special and to gain self worth, I decided to lose my virginity at that point. All of this things lead me to become very depressed, suicidal at times. I became a social outcast at school, my family was angry with me. I had no one I could turn to, so I turned to sex, food, and vomiting. I had sex to make me feel like I was worth something, I ate because I was angry at myself, and I made myself vomit to gain some sort of control over my life. I was 13, depressed, sexually active, doing horrible in school, had low self esteem, and made myself throw up, I was not on the best track. My mom had me going to a counselor and a psychiatrist, they put me on ant-depressants, and I became more and ore unhappy everyday. This went on until I was about 16 and one day I woke up and realized, I wasn’t happy. I wasn’t going to changed because my family wanted me to or because my doctors wanted me to, I had to do what was right for me, I needed to love myself. The next step I took was creating a list of things I liked about myself, things I wanted to changes, and things I had to except. Next, I created goals for myself, I focused on school, I started working out, and I did things that I enjoyed. The main point I am trying to get across is, never change for other people because it is just going to make life more stressful. Only change when you are ready, love yourself, be their for yourself, because you are the only person you can ever really rely on.